I'm a little lonely, okay. I should have gone to Matt and Renee's tonight instead of almost being killed in an intersection I didn't understand on my way to Thai food that I had a craving for... only to feel like I was on display by being sat prominently in the middle of the restaurant, facing the front door. Chaba Thai's food was good, but they really wanted me to go through some sort of mental battery.

I practiced today, and might even practice some more before I go to bed... what else am I going to do? I feel like I'm the only one of my species to forge a path into this strange land... but when I contact the other members of the species, they feel as lonely as I do. This seems inefficient. Couldn't I bring all the people I love into one convenient location where we could all reside and have perfect jobs together? I feel like the course of my life has led me farther and farther away from the most important people in my life, and I think that's one of the saddest thoughts I've ever had.

How do I get past this? Which is more important in my life: my family and friends who have seen me through so much being close to me constantly - or making sure I keep my career dreams intact?

Never really considered the possibility to be either or. I'm not sure I'm strong enough to face what the answer may truly be sometimes.